for the last couple weeks, i have been struck by the weight of this passage....realizing it in my own life. seriously, where has time gone? on tuesday i took molly to kindergarten round-up at gap creek elementary school - what the heck? since when do i have a child entering school? really?! (she loved every minute of it, by the way. she is totally pumped about starting and she "can't wait to eat in the cafeteria".) i just can't believe it. i can't believe that molly is 5 1/2 when i can so clearly remember the day of her birth like it was yesterday. dustin and i talked about all of this this morning...(he even got teary...shhhhh) and it is just so unreal. and i don't want to waste my life. i want to serve and love Jesus in the way i live, and it seems that i've just kind of "gotten by" for the last 5 1/2 years without TRULY asking how God wants me to serve Him. i mean, sure, i've tried to raise my kids to know and love Him, and i've tried to do my job with integrity and have tried to point people to God......but i don't know that i have truly sought out His will for my life every single day - and now 2,007ish days later it hits me. life IS fleeting. and i want to make the most of it. Jesus help me!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Friday, April 3, 2009
my life seems crazy busy. lately i have felt like there's not enough time in the day to get everything done that needs to be done. so generally, i feel lousy because i'm not doing GREAT at much of anything......there is always a pile of laundry to be washed or put away; that one year bible thing? yeah, always reading extra to catch up; bathrooms clean? no, not really; dog fed? sometimes....i usually DO remember, but sometimes i'm a little late; on time anywhere? nope. i'm officially a blackburn (and being late is my #1 pet peave....sigh); exercising? wait a minute - what is that?
how do you do it? how do you keep up with all that motherhood and a full-time job require and feel like you're doing it all WELL? things are always being neglected - like blogging...defintiely not a top priority, obviously, cleaning the bathrooms, quite time with Jesus, quality time with Dustin, the never-ending laundry......it could just go on and on!!! and, of course, i wouldn't trade my children for anything in the world - but this motherhood thing definitely ain't for sissies. i guess the responsibility of it all just gets overwhelming at times - and i want to do the best that i can....but sometimes my best isn't very good, and i hate that. your advise? how do you do it?